Right now I have basically two or three choices. 1, take care of my borderline friend, who I totally understand, but exhausts me because I’m dealing with the same exact thing and I don’t know the answer for her relationship to get better because she really just needs to get out of it…. but it’s never that easy, 2. be totally alone and isolated, because no one else seems to care, or 3, rely on my unreliable ex boyfriend who tells me he loves me one day and doesn’t talk to me the next, and gets mad when I tell him to be straight up…. either stick around, or don’t.
I thought things were gonna be okay. I thought things were gonna be perfect. I thought things were looking up instead of down. Instead, they look up, they look down again, they look up, they look down again…. and I get all of the blame for it but I just don’t know what to do. Maybe it’s my moods. People tell me it’s my moods. But people will tell you a llot of things. People will feed you a lot of bullshit because they don’t know the answer themselves. They’ll say “I think you neeed to do this”. Whatever.
