December 2011
My new sounds:
2 tags
I can just hear a voice in my head saying “no one cares about anything you say, stop talking, just be alone forever. No one can handle or wants to deal with you” and that’s why I practically tried to kill myself a few days ago. It went away for a while and now that I’m around people I want to die all over again. I can’t relate to them. Men always throw me away or...
My new sounds:
2 tags
2 tags
2 tags
2 tags
Anonymous asked: this is embarrassing.. but i get a free bottle every time someone buys one at mangoaff725(dõt)com and these things work better than crack. i friggin lost 15lbs in 2 weeks.. try them. they seriously work like crazy.
2 tags
2 tags
2 tags
My new sounds:
2 tags
2 tags
2 tags
A few hours ago:
Blah last night I was eating crab rangoon (nomnomnom) and now I’m eating nothing because my stomach hates me and I’m robotic like the rest of everyone around me…. in this colorless city. This is a true story. I don’t like Boston anymore because it’s clear to me that my friends have all gone crazy in a bad way, the new ones that tried to introduce themselves were...
I’m always quietly judging people. Usually for a good reason. Like stupid goth clothes, too much makeup, not attractive enough (according to my standards which isn’t saying much, i’m super accepting when it comes down to it… i seem to be super in love w/ chubby dudes!!!), stupid glare on their face, whatever. It’s really stupid of me to judge because I seem to hold...
Anonymous asked: I believe it's lower to judge a girl as a tool do solely to cell phone use than it is to use a cell phone, even if in an inappropriate situation don't you?
Everything was cool. Everything was a-okay. Then he got into a car accident. I had to go away. I’ve been thinking and thinking and not drinking and feeling like I want to go the other way. The other way is a place where people go to free themselves of suffering and pain or perhaps just for the sake of going astray. I don’t know what to do so maybe I’ll just hit the hay. The hay...
3 tags
5 tags
1 tag
1 tag
2 tags
2 tags
My new sounds:
2 tags
I once met a superhero. He wore a really shiny cape in my favorite color. He was my favorite character. His smile showed sparkles like a normal guy. Just a normal guy who never did anything but smile and play with me. He told me I could fly. I can’t fly, that’s ridiculous, I said. You can do anything you want to, he said, and handed me a purple ice cream cone as a dragon in a pink...
I think I want to kill myself. He comes home from work, i’m dead. That’ll teach him not to treat a girl like she’s invisible anymore. I’ll just die. Then it won’t end badly. Maybe he won’t even cry. Maybe until then he won’t even try. Then he’ll really ask why. I won’t stop until my entire body and face are covered in cuts and blood. No one...
I can no longer access tumblr from,my computer except my boyfriends and I am not sure I would feel comfortable with him having my url as well as I have no idea how to use a mac, but this blog is going to live, oh yes it is.
He stands there while she plays background girl for a while. She wonders if he even knows what she is doing. He probably does. It probably makes his eyes roll. Her eyes water as she wants freedom from this yet stability from this broken feeling to emerge into something new and beautiful. A guy stands in the background saying hell yeah to everything. A text is sent from her father. No package was...
She is a part of everything yet a part of nothing.
I wonder if those in the background can see what is happening to me. This girl quietly sitting and using her cellphone. Not engaging in the social endeavors. Sad. Not sure if his love for her is real or even if she is part of an entity or just a part of the background. A tool, a mere tool.
My parents have forgotten about me. My boyfriend has his thing going on and his friends and when we go out together will rudely just walk away with them without really making me feel included or invited. My friends dont call or txt me either really. I feel like I have a lot of funny ideas or insights that people never really bother to look at. I guess thats why im blogging on an android phone,...